It's been a long time since I've shot a video on Home Depot....almost a year now.
It's March of 2017 and guess what? I miss working there.
It's the people. That's what jazzed me when I was working there. That's why I stuck with it for so long. That's why I wanted to get promoted and got promoted twice, because I was fired-up. People came to me all the time, asking me questions and want some help on stuff. Sometimes I just sat there and listened, letting them vent. Sometimes if they gave me permission to give them advice, then I would.
Home Depot taught me how to master the art of listening.
Anyway, this is the follow-up video for the "Quitting Home Depot" series of videos. Some things have started coming up recently for me. People have been asking, so here it is.
What seemed big last year while I was resigning [from Home Depot] seems very small now, even if it's exists at all.
Things just don't bother me like they used to. That is something I've said before. Yet, with all of the inner work I've done, that statement has become more profound.
Here's the thing: One of the biggest reasons why I left Home Depot is because I wanted to get back to the east coast. The biggest reason being because my family's there. I wanted to go back to North Carolina.
Last year, I saw San Diego (which is where I am right now), as an opportunity. As a detour of sorts. The thought was at the time, come down here, hang out for maybe up to six months, and then make it back. Yet, I'm still here. Not for long though, I'm going to move back probably in the next month, and I'm excited about that.
The wildest thing about all of this is the transition in my head about working for a company. You can apply this to any company. It's all about who you are and how you show up in the world when you get to that place where you're working. Are you still yourself or do you put on a mask?
I was putting on a mask because I didn't want the associates see my frustration about being in Ukiah, California when the place that I really wanted to be was 3,000 miles away. I failed miserably. They could see it on my face. There were some things about that particular situation that I saw as toxic at the time.
That was my choice to see it that way [and I do not blame anyone other than myself]. Even though I had already established a meditation practice and I was able to, at times, drop in and look at myself in the mirror and go, "Dude, look at you. You're pissed off or you're upset or you're sad or whatever, and those people that you're leading are seeing you that way. That's no good."
I realize all that now. I kinda realized it back then, but I wasn't as good at it as I thought I was. I'm human. You're human.
Everybody has those times in their lives where they feel frustration and then we try to push it down and not let people see it. You may be able to do that on your face, but everybody's got energy man. You walk into a room where people are all pissed off, you feel it. If you walk into a room where everybody's all happy and you're all jumbled up inside and you're all pissed off about something. You might be smiling while you're all pissed off, they're going to feel it. They're going to know something's up.
Anyway, this is a quick video and I just wanted to kind of let everybody know where I was in the process. Scroll back up to the top of this post and watch it if you haven't yet.
You know, I actually thought about, and am still thinking about, going back to the company. Yeah. I miss it that much and I'd have to start over, or not. I don't know. I miss being around that many people and being there for them. Even if I'm an hourly associate wearing an apron stocking shelves, because I was that guy. I was that guy for six and a half years.
It doesn't matter what my title is anymore. Whether I'm an author, whether I'm a speaker or a Home Depot associate. What matters, and here's the lesson in all of this:
What matters is who you are inside. I Know who I Am. I Know what I Am, and I Know how I serve.
Just be yourself.
Peace to you.